Last night I met with my dear friend and business partner Tiffany Patterson who is absolutely amazing with Young Living Oils. Tiffany helps people release emotional energies with her oils; she is helping me release emotional energies around money.
So yesterday, was a massive day of growth; I discovered I am afraid of men, and then I discovered how I have been holding myself back financially because of emotions tied around money and men.
It’s amazing how we experience life and it affects so many areas in our lives. We don’t even know until we decide enough is enough and we start to take our lives head on. For me I have grown so much, I have gotten through so many things in my life and yet I still hold myself prisoner. As I continually dive into what stops me, I have found out so many things about myself.
I have had strong men in my life put me down and have tremendous power over me; even when they are no longer in my life. As I was with Tiffany working on my emotional blocks towards money, I found that my recent ex-husband treated me like a bad child, and I had a lot of shame around money and the mistakes (learning lessons) I had experienced. When I felt that shame in my chest I could not believe the hold it had on me. Then we did the exercise a 2nd time, my first husband came up…and I had a heavy brick in my chest for being such a drain on him; even though he caused us so much money with all his stuff; I still took it all as if it were my fault. The 3rd time we did the exercise my father who raised me came up with a deep sadness and pain that went right through my heart into my back…knowing that he did not think I could handle my own finances and took it over when I was just learning was devastating. Being told you are stupid and you can’t handle it was not the way I took as a good learning experience.
I really got to look at deep rooted emotions that have been holding me back; who was I to be able to have financial freedom and everything I have ever wanted if I was a bad child, a terrible drain, and completely incompetent to handle my finances.
Today, I feel amazing, moving through those emotions I feel free; I feel like today is a new day. Driving into work today, I saw snow-flakes and blue sky…it was as if the magic around me has finally been unleashed. My friends…Do the work on your-self. Finally set your whole world free so you can enjoy every moment of it.
I love you and I wish all of you a very magical day.
Just Rita Real Talk