We started this journey together in June and my goal for myself is to lose 70 lbs. in the next year. That goal still holds true; that is definitely what I am working towards. However, I thought it should look a certain way that I had to be perfect and not fall off. I was turning my goal into a crazy competition with myself that was taking away from what I was truly doing. I find for myself, when I put a goal out into the world I put undue pressure on myself. I put myself in situations that would completely sabotage me. What that turns out to be is a sneaky way of self-loathing. I was in that self-loathing and not really knowing it for a few weeks. I was having success and then I wasn't. I no longer was making this goal about being healthy and confident. It turned into how can I lose the weight fast and impress all of you. As you can see, it did not work. So, I did not blog for a week, I kept myself on track and not weighing and taking pictures of myself. I needed to see what I was really up to. I had my girlfriend take a picture of me when we were heading out to a Black and White Party, and I was shocked at what I saw. I saw someone who what extremely happy and looking beautiful. People who I hadn't seen for a while were asking me how much weight did I lost, and what I was doing. I was shocked! For the first time in EVER I actually love of picture of myself. I am changing my whole self and this takes time. It is not over night. This is something that I am realizing. Patients!!!! Rome was not built in a DAY!!!
If you are going through this, or have gone through this and gave up on yourself get back on track. Get back on TRACK!!! Please don't give up! YOU are WORTH IT!!! Sometimes we just don't know it. Well, I know it now. I will not quit, I will never give up on my dreams and I will keep blogging. I will share, but I won't be so structured. If you are feeling the need to share...please do. If you are not comfortable on this blog, email me personally. I am here to help you on your journey!!! As I learn and achieve my goals, I will share and help you achieve your goals.
Thank you so much all of you!!! Have a great day!!!