My husband's grandmother had passed away and we had to go to Marceline Mo. for the funeral. There I met most of my husband's family that I have not had the pleasure as of yet. We have been together about 13 years and I finally got to meet the most wonderful people God has put on this Earth. I could not believe all the loving and caring people that are in one big family. I am so blessed to have my husband and the whole family in my life.
The other surprise is I had finally found my two older half brothers....I had been looking for them about 14 years; finally a hit on Facebook none the less got me connected with my brothers. I am truly feeling Whole and Complete for the very first time in my life.
That brings me to today's inspiration: Once you know your true worth no one can ever make you feel worthless. So true...the only one that can make you feel worthless is yourself. This past weekend has been eye opening for me in so many ways. Not knowing my husband's family and trying to be the best wife; I put a lot of pressure on myself. When I realized who they all were and really saw my husband; I realized for myself how much pressure I put upon me along with putting the pressure on him. This pressure has caused me so much grief heartache and anguish. I now feel freed to be me and realize that I am a great wife and an amazing woman.
Finding my brothers had also freed me from the horrible nightmare of not knowing who I am. I always had this empty vacant whole that I have been feeding to feel complete. My life is different but the same for many; I did not find out my parents were not my biological parents until going into my senior year of high school. I spent a lot of my adult life angry and searching for who I am. I met my natural father about 14 years ago and my younger siblings; I felt almost complete with myself then, but I still longed for my two older brothers. This past weekend I got to talk to them and realize I am truly whole and complete.
I am that girl where I have to know everything and figure it all out. I am very curious and I never give up. I now have been able to put all my ghost and demons to rest; now the rest is up to me. Knowing my own worth has made me feel like a million bucks. I always knew I was an amazing person just by all the friends and family I have around me, but I always lacked that little something that would make it all complete. Now no one can ever knock me down...It is always up to me to know my worth and to always be that girl. I am finally realizing that I don't have to have all the answers and to be the strongest person. I can actually be that girl who can be taken care of and have to best life God has to offer.
I am truly blessed and so honored to share myself with all of you. Have an amazing day, until we meet again.