I have to say the past 6 months for me has been quite a ride. I have dealt with so many emotions, coming to terms with a lot of events that have occurred along the way with having my hormones out of whack. It is so amazing how we are in our day to day life and everything keeps going when you are smacked in the face with the reality you are going through menopause. LOL I have been so emotional and moody; I felt like I was on a roller coaster ride. I always have hot flashes and night sweats; I figured that is what was normal. But when a friend said you might be going through menopause; I thought she was crazy...I am too young. However, I have found I am not too young. So I started taking a product that I sell for mature ladies like myself....hahahahhaah It's called Estro-Rhythm which has been a God Send!!! I have been taking it for the past 3 days and I have never felt better. These past three days have been like someone lifted a huge heavy blanket off me and I can breathe and see clearly. I don't even want to kill my husband anymore....ahahhahaha It's funny how life is like a comedy show.
To switch gears a bit; today's inspiration is eye opening for me as well. Forgiving is so many levels we don't realize how deep it actually goes. I have been working on myself for years; every day I let go a little more and forgive a little more. I thought that I had been complete with my past and I was moving forward in my life. However that was farthest from the truth. When we are truly learning to let go and forgive we are put through many little tests that may prove otherwise. I have been put to the test these past 6 months and for the most part I have forgiven others; but what I found is that I have not truly forgiven myself. As I have had events thrown back in my face I have been getting down on myself. I have been becoming depressed and angry; I have been letting go of all the work I have done on myself. I have forgotten why I made the decisions that I did and made myself wrong.
One thing that I truly have going for me is that I have amazing people surrounding me to help me keep living my dreams. My support system has helped me see that I am an amazing woman who has made decisions too be better and have the life that my son and I deserved. They have shared with me what it truly means to let go and forgive so that I can continue to be the woman I am today.
We need to be whole and complete with ourselves no matter what. When someone says something to you so that you continue to feel bad about yourself; you are not complete with you and you have not forgiven yourself. If I was truly complete and forgave myself, what they say would not bother me. This is something to really think about. It makes perfect sense as well. How many times have you found yourself feel bad when someone has said something to you about your past? How many times when you were complete about something and when someone brought it up you could care less? My first question shows that you were not complete and had not forgiven yourself or them....my second question showed that you were complete and had forgiven YOU and them. It's is as easy as that....but we make it so hard.
Go and be at peace my friends. Don't let others tear you down; most importantly don't tear yourself down. Who cares what people think...they are not you...they have their own demons to deal with. Until we meet again....
With all my love....Rita