I share this inspiration with you today because I want to you know if you feel like a door is closing; it's okay, let it close. Many of you have been following my blog for quite some time and you have learned a little bit about me. I have recently found two older brothers and reconnected with my sister who I have not seen in over 20 years, along with reconnecting with my natural birth mother. These past few months have been a crazy roller coaster.
You might be thinking to yourself, if she has had all that going on, why would she post a quote such as this? Well sometimes doors are meant to stay closed. However we don't really figure that out until you have gone through an experience or two or three or four....I laugh at how many times I keep trying to pry the door open.
I had found out that I had birth parents when I was going into my senior year of high school. When I had my son it plagued me that a parent could let go of their child so I sought out my birth father. I had my questions answered with him and had a little bit of a relationship with him but it dwindled off. I got to know him along with three younger siblings that I have. I was grateful that the curiosity for him was gone. Then after 14 years I found my two older brothers this past July; it was literally like finding a needle in a haystack. Unfortunately it is turning out that they blame our birth father for their life and everyone else around them. Being able to reconnect with my sister has been the answer to my prayers; to be able to talk to her almost daily for hours is a blessing I never thought I wanted, but I am so grateful for it. Now my birth mother who has been in my life, who I grew up as my aunt, has been a door I truly should have kept shut.
Through life you always hear "Forgive and Forget", "People Change", "Their Different Now", "I Am Sorry", "Their Old Now"....we hear all kinds of things that put us in positions to either heal, let go or to be warned. With my birth mother it was all three; I did heal from all the lies and I finally started to know who I am and where I came from, but it is not something that will dictate my life, it is actually setting me free. Sometimes people don't change; they don't know how to be other than the person they have been their whole lives. I actually feel sorry for people like that because they truly don't know what they are missing in life. They are missing in the goodies that God has tried to give them; people who could have changed their whole life around but they can't see past who they have always been. It is such a waste. Learning to let go and start truly living is one of the most amazing gifts you can give yourself. I have learned to let go finally. I have learned that people do not have to be in my life that is only going to hurt and disappoint. I have learned that I am better than all this pain and I have a say how it's going to affect me.
That is the beauty of being on an amazing journey. We don't know how our life is going to go; we have to keep taking the roads that will teach us how to participate in life. We learn how to treat each other with love and respect by learning to love and respect our own selves. We start to demand the best for ourselves and we don't accept horrible treatment by others.
Every day is different, everyday is a new experience, how we learn and grow from it will make or break us. How do you want to live your life? I want to be someone who bounces back and truly makes something of myself. I don't want to be that person were people feel sorry for me and say "she could have been somebody". I want to be that girl were people say "My God She Is AMAZING!!!”
Think about your life and your experiences....how do you want to be in your daily life? Think about it...That is how your life will go. Until we meet again my friends...
With all my love...Rita