This whole blog is about women being empowered by who they are. Their self esteem is so important to the life that they are choosing to live. "The fastest way to increase your self esteem is to take better care of yourself." How powerful is that statement. This is something that I am truly learning through this asthma attack. When you can't breathe you can't fully take in life. You can't do all the things that you think you need to do. However, in this time of need for me; I am allowing to be taken care of for the first time in my life. I am allowing my family to do all that I have done for them, they are doing for me. I am able to recover and get myself back by accepting the love they have offered and yet I have always pushed away. I have always thought that I had to do it all myself. I had to be the one to literally do it all as if they had no idea what to do. But as I am allowing myself the recovery time and not be the do it all mom and wife, my family is able to share their gifts and their love for me for the very first time.
I have realized this morning that I have enabled my family to be how they have been being. I never gave them a change to step up and do what they need to do for themselves until recently. It is amazing how God has knocked me on my butt so that I can allow my family to participate in this family. I have been sick with these terrible attacks 3 times this year...every time I got out of the hospital I went right to work the very next day, never taking the time to heal. I went right into cleaning, cooking and handling all that needed to be done; I never gave myself a chance to recover. This time around God made sure that I would have to stop and take time for me. I would not be able to do what I normally had done; I would have to rely on others and ask for help.
Writing today's blog has allowed me to see the impact of how I have been living my life; how I have been causing myself more harm than good. But when you stop to really take care of you, you really start to realize how important you are to your family; all you have to do is let them be there for you. When you are being taken care of your self esteem grows like crazy. You are not feeling sorry for yourself because nobody cares....it's quite the opposite; they do care I just never allowed it to show up for me. I thought that I had to be the ALL for everyone and deprive myself of the love that was trying to be shared with me.
Love yourself enough to ask for help and allow your loved ones to help take care of you as you have taken care of them. You will see your value and your worth grow right before your eyes. You will see your family step up to the task faster than you could have even imagined. You just have to let it in.
I am so grateful I got as sick as I did. I am so moved by the love my family has for me and for the first time in my life I am not fixing and controlling anything. I am literally allowing myself to heal and get stronger. I feel like my family has actually healed through this experience. We are talking with each other, spending time with each other and telling each other how much we love and appreciate each other. It is a Christmas gift that will last a life time.
Take care of you my friends...allow your family to step up and participate in your life. You don't have to do it all...When you start to let them in, your esteem and confidence will go through the roof. Until we meet again my friends...
With all my love....Rita