This year has been absolutely awesome and hard at the same time for me. I have had a lot of learning to go through along with a lot of healing from old deep wounds. When we are young we take our lives for granted, we don't think about anything but being in the moment. Yesterday, I went to a funeral for a childhood friend, she was only 44 but the pain her body has endured these past few years was unbearable. As I was at her casket I was thinking about when we are kids and playing, doing silly things, getting into trouble. We never think about the future, at that age we don't even know what the future is. But now as an adult we remember how much easier life was without a care in the world. It kind of puts things in to perspective a little bit. We take life for granted thinking that we will always have life; we will always have breath, that we will always have another day to play. But when we are called home, the party is over. How did we spend our time here on earth...?
I have been thinking a lot lately since being sick and having a childhood friend pass away. I have been thinking about all the things that I have been up to in my life. How is it that I am making a difference in this world along with learning to love and forgive? How am I using the days that God has given me to get closer to my dreams? Am I letting go of old hurts so that I can move on and have the best life possible? Am I forgiving and accepting of all around me so that love could truly flow through my veins? I am really looking at this year and seeing what an amazing year I have had. I was able to reconnect with my sister who I have not ever really had a relationship with. I was able to find two brothers who I had only known about for the past 14 years and I got to meet them. I was able to spend the summer with my Mother and Father-in-law while they were going through their own struggles. I also went on a cross county road trip by myself. I have been taking classes that have opened my heart and my mind. I have been able to be with my natural mother and appreciate her for who she is. There is so much that I have accomplished this year that I am forever grateful for.
Yesterday, I saw an inspiration that said when you are sick your body is telling you how awesome you are and you are being forced to slow down so everyone else can catch up with you. Well, that must be true, because this year has been one of the best years of my life. Everything that I have done and learned is catapulting me to a higher level of my life. I look forward to what the New Year has in store for me.
Everyone readying this blog today look at what you have done this year. No matter what the event, look at how amazing you have been this year, and how much you have learned. You will go into this New Year feeling absolutely incredible knowing that the Year 2014 was one of the best years of your life.
Have an amazing day my beautiful friends. Until we meet again...
With all my love...Rita