In our journey we need to remember it took some time to get where we are. Our weight did not come on over night; it took some time to pack it all on...It will take some time to unpack it all.
We never pay attention to the time it took to put up the fluffy armor we have built for ourselves. For whatever reason we have made sure that we have put on the weight to protect ourselves...when we realize we no longer need the protection we want it to disappear all at once. We never seem to have the patience to take it off slowly; we want it gone like yesterday.
When I came across this quote today it really rang a bell for me. I have been packing on the protection since I was 11 years old. For whatever reason it doesn't matter, what matters is it is time to unravel it all. Now that I am ready for the release, I have to unravel all that I had put on my body. It is taking one day at a time to make the changes and to make the changes stick. I have to deal with each unhappy moment that I have gone through and tried to protect myself. Right now is a time that is difficult for me. I have found myself very crabby and angry since I had gotten sick with a pretty bad asthma attack. Whenever I get sick with the asthma it always brings up unhappiness for me. I haven't quite figured it out, but I am doing everything I can not to fall into the old patterns. My patterns are eating and drinking whatever is in front of me...it is almost like I have lost total control....And there it is...that is why I love to blog...I just figured it out. When I have an attack that puts me in the hospital I no longer have control....guess what...I am a control freak....I have to depend on others to help me along. So when I get sick like that I feel out of control and I get angry about it. When I can't breathe it makes me feel even worse. Then it is hard for me to get back on track.
Control!!!! Why do we always have to be CONTROL FREAKS!!!! There it is my friends...let go of the control...we can't control anything...take one step at a time and keep moving forward. WE can DO IT!!!! We are that powerful!!!!
Thank you so much for helping me in my dilemma!!!! Now I feel a million times better...Have a great day my friends. Until we meet again.