You might be asking yourself "what the heck is up with Rita?" "Why would she be putting this kind of inspiration up?" These are great questions.
As I have shared in the previous blog, I am dealing with heath issues that are scary for me and I will be sharing them with all of you. As we go through very tough times together it is very important to acknoledge how we feel through the process. I would not be doing you or myself any justice if I denied what I go through.
Today's inspiration is most important to share with each and every one of you reading. No one promised us an easy life; but we have been raised to suck it up and move on. I feel that if we do not acknowlege how we feel as we go through our tough times, they actually will haunt us later. In my experience I have buried my feelings my whole life so that I would not appear weak. In my opionin that sucks becuase no one can then support or help in a serious time of need. We tend to be drowning in our own self pitty and use a mask of "I'm OKAY" to hide what we are truly feeling. Who is it that we are protecting? Is it ourselves so people don't think we are weak, or is it the ones closest so they do not have to deal with the situation....something to truly think about.
I would say most of my life I have buried my true feeling deep inside so I do not burden another with my stuff; I have done it my entire life. I have learned to keep my true self hidden so no one is inconvenienced; I have also learned that if I show my weakness then others will take advantage of that moment.
When you are brought up in a home that is physically violent as well as mentally abusive you learn very early on how to survive. Sometimes those survival skills help you in the worst of times as well as hinders you in the worst of times.