Good morning my friends...I hope you are doing well.
Today's inspiration is very conflicting for me; but I am supposed to venture and blog about it.
Exposing yourself to your most deepest fear is truly terrifying, especially if you don't really know what it is that holds you back. Although as I am writing my deepest fear is truly succeeding; I guess we do know.
The fear of success for me is a constant battle in my brain. I know where I should be and I know what I am truly capable of; however it terrifies me. It terrifies me to the point of going in hiding, filling my body with garbage and feeling sorry for myself along with picking fights that are truly not there.
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? That is the true question of the day. I know deep down in my soul I am that good. I know my gifts and talents help many people across the globe. Again, WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? Well, I do this to myself because I am afraid of leaving people behind, I am afraid of moving forward and the ones I love will not follow, I am afraid of maybe hurting someone else's feelings because of where I am headed. Let's be honest; as much as we say we love change, change scares the pants off of us. Because we may find that we are going in different directions as someone else.
If I were to be truly honest with myself; I have held my own self back because of what others may think. I have had enough people in my life who say that I will never make it, that I am living in a fantasy. I have had such haters in my life because of who I am being. When I am on, I am unwavering; some people who have been around me have hated that because that is not who they are. Again, let's be honest; we say that people like that don't bother us, but little by little we allow that to chip away at ourselves. We truly do start to believe those stupid lies we keep hearing and keep telling ourselves. So we ultimately talk ourselves out of the successes we should be celebrating.
Right now I am having a Come Home to Jesus conversation with myself. I have been experiencing some wins in my life and I am feeling the pressure of myself along with some loved ones around me. Sometimes it is so much easier we think to stay back...but if you are truly supposed to be more than you are giving yourself credit, you are going to be tortured by yourself until you start honoring yourself. I truly hope this makes sense?
Today, let's take a fear that is holding us back and really do something about it. Let's really take some action and change the outcome that we are creating by holding ourselves back. Let's for once no matter what shut that little voice in our heads that are constantly picking at us to just stay stuck. Ultimately, if we are successful and our loved ones are still with us...that is fantastic. If we are successful and our loved ones are not with us...well we know that it was time to drop the dead weight.
Let's do it my friends...right now I am scaring the heck out of myself....I am taking that leap and I will report tomorrow how it all went.
Until we meet again my friends...
With all my love...Rita
Today's inspiration is very conflicting for me; but I am supposed to venture and blog about it.
Exposing yourself to your most deepest fear is truly terrifying, especially if you don't really know what it is that holds you back. Although as I am writing my deepest fear is truly succeeding; I guess we do know.
The fear of success for me is a constant battle in my brain. I know where I should be and I know what I am truly capable of; however it terrifies me. It terrifies me to the point of going in hiding, filling my body with garbage and feeling sorry for myself along with picking fights that are truly not there.
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? That is the true question of the day. I know deep down in my soul I am that good. I know my gifts and talents help many people across the globe. Again, WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? Well, I do this to myself because I am afraid of leaving people behind, I am afraid of moving forward and the ones I love will not follow, I am afraid of maybe hurting someone else's feelings because of where I am headed. Let's be honest; as much as we say we love change, change scares the pants off of us. Because we may find that we are going in different directions as someone else.
If I were to be truly honest with myself; I have held my own self back because of what others may think. I have had enough people in my life who say that I will never make it, that I am living in a fantasy. I have had such haters in my life because of who I am being. When I am on, I am unwavering; some people who have been around me have hated that because that is not who they are. Again, let's be honest; we say that people like that don't bother us, but little by little we allow that to chip away at ourselves. We truly do start to believe those stupid lies we keep hearing and keep telling ourselves. So we ultimately talk ourselves out of the successes we should be celebrating.
Right now I am having a Come Home to Jesus conversation with myself. I have been experiencing some wins in my life and I am feeling the pressure of myself along with some loved ones around me. Sometimes it is so much easier we think to stay back...but if you are truly supposed to be more than you are giving yourself credit, you are going to be tortured by yourself until you start honoring yourself. I truly hope this makes sense?
Today, let's take a fear that is holding us back and really do something about it. Let's really take some action and change the outcome that we are creating by holding ourselves back. Let's for once no matter what shut that little voice in our heads that are constantly picking at us to just stay stuck. Ultimately, if we are successful and our loved ones are still with us...that is fantastic. If we are successful and our loved ones are not with us...well we know that it was time to drop the dead weight.
Let's do it my friends...right now I am scaring the heck out of myself....I am taking that leap and I will report tomorrow how it all went.
Until we meet again my friends...
With all my love...Rita
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